Ya know those things that sort of just…follow you around?
And you think you are doing so well and then…you fall?
I listened to a sermon here and The pastor was talking about the process of which we do things.
We think it,
feel it,
say it,
and then do it.
I was thinking about that this week and it is spot on.
Can you imagine if we just got rid of the thought?
I want to be a complete woman of God. I want to be a woman someone will be lucky to marry one day. I want to be 100% devoted to my Heavenly father and His plan for my life. I want to be with someone completely devoted to God’s purposes for their life. How can I expect to end up with that Man if I myself am making poor choices?
I woke up this morning feeling…not guilty…not ashamed…just…unclean. Like everything I had worked to established had been shattered in a weekend. Like all of my hard work and god devotion had been given up. Like all the dreams I had, had been set aside.
I know it’s ok. I know I’m fine and God forgives me and it’s all already forgotten. But I just hate KNOWING when I mess up i guess.
If only we could wipe our minds of it like God does…
I am SO excited for you to come home!!!!! I wish you could stay longer…oh well, I am happy for you to go do amazing things all over the place tho
I love you!