I was inspired the other day and I really want to get my art out.
I started a myspace art page, sort of lame I know…buuuuttt i cant buy a page right now.
so check it out, add me, comment and buy something! 
just joking…
but please, do go look.
www.myspace.com/shannonraeart
Ya know those things that sort of just…follow you around?
And you think you are doing so well and then…you fall?
I listened to a sermon here and The pastor was talking about the process of which we do things.
We think it,
feel it,
say it,
and then do it.
I was thinking about that this week and it is spot on.
Can you imagine if we just got rid of the thought?
I want to be a complete woman of God. I want to be a woman someone will be lucky to marry one day. I want to be 100% devoted to my Heavenly father and His plan for my life. I want to be with someone completely devoted to God’s purposes for their life. How can I expect to end up with that Man if I myself am making poor choices?
I woke up this morning feeling…not guilty…not ashamed…just…unclean. Like everything I had worked to established had been shattered in a weekend. Like all of my hard work and god devotion had been given up. Like all the dreams I had, had been set aside.
I know it’s ok. I know I’m fine and God forgives me and it’s all already forgotten. But I just hate KNOWING when I mess up i guess.
God has been doing a lot with me down here.
I got accepted into a really amazing school in Minnesota. (www.bcom.org)
Its called Bethany College of Missions.
I also applied for Masters Commission here in LA. I know, I never would have thought I would stay any longer than a year. I am still praying about all of it. I want to be where God wants me, so we will see what happens.If you think about it, say a prayer for me.
I am finally getting to start doing worship team this month! I am super excited. I was also blessed with a whole bunch of canvas to paint. God is amazing.
I am coming home the 2nd-12th of July. For the fourth, for kassi’s wedding and some family stuff. 10 days. That will be fun. It will be nice to see all of you After that, I will be back here, off to guatemala for a month and back home for christmas. Crazy. Time is just flying by…
I guess when you enjoy something, you spend less time at a computer desk.
I am really loving it here now, guys. Go figure that when I make the real commitment to stay, things get better.
My adopt a block site is amazing. The kids there are so precious. I go to Jordan Downs, which is in the projects. These people, some of them, have no way out. They have never seen anything else. They get sucked into gangs and drugs because they have nothing else. We go and tell them they do. Take them to church. Love them. Invest in them. It’s amazing. I love it.
I got a new roommate. My old one decided to go home. Crazy huh? So my friend Bethany moved in with me. We have a lot of fun…
I also succumbed to the LA world and decided to dye my hair..only a little in the front. Just a little POP!
I am going to DISNEYLAND FOR THE FIRST TIME ON MONDAY!!!!
I am so excited.
I sent out letters about Guatemala. annddd…Life is good. God is good.
I miss you guys.
So I am back.
Obviously.
Our easter service was, surprisingly, really good. I mean, I knew it would be good but I was surprised at how good it was. Props go to God.
If anyone hasn’t read the book “The shack” you need to read it.
I finished it on sunday and it is still boggling my brain.
And I need $1680 to go to Guatemala for a month, any fundraising ideas?
My nephew is so cute.
Seeing him when I am home is the highlight of my whole trip.
He sleeps with a little stuffed dog he calls “Puppy”
He already has art in his veins and he is only two and a half years old….:)
I am really starting to enjoy it here.
Its beautiful.
The people are beautiful.
And God is doing beautiful things.
3.6.08. 9:45am
You know those passions that God just instills in you?
Something that has made your beat faster for as long as you can remember?
Sometimes when I go to shows or hear someone playing guitar or watch someone do a play or watch someone act I remember the way it all use to consume my life.
I think there are few things that make me feel the way performing does.
I wish I would have gone as far as my dreams were reaching back then.
Do you remember those days?
Lead soprano, voice lessons, choir tours on cruises, shows and trips and plays and musicals and practice every spare moment we had. Music coming out of our mouths and water being the only drink allowed to pass through our lips. 6:30 AM practices and the accomplishment when the piece came out perfect. Standing ovations and awards and touching people through the songs and works.
There was seriously a point in my life where the only thing I could imagine myself doing was singing. Being on stage is like being home.
Its safety. Its security. Its adventure and ambition.
I don’t do it as much now.
But I think it has to be present in my life all the time.
The arts, and acting and music somehow have to always be present in my life.
Whether it is me doing the performing or me getting to support someone I love while they perform…
I think there are a few things that God puts in you and they just cant be compromised or taken away. Its too deep. And it means too much.
And He does that for a reason.
I need to start singing again.
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”- Joshua 1:9
Soooo
I have sort of started a new job and I promised to stay off IM.
How sad I know.
So I thought I would let everyone know.
But I am really excited. I am going to be going out on all the different ministries like all the time.
Lots of new stuff
I am going to be working with the orphan ministry too soon so I am way pumped.
I think I am going to be coming home still for like 5 days, but it isnt for sure yet.
I still have my phone.
so text away. I’ll even succumb to phone calls.
love you guys.
